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| It is the first time I have come to shanghai. And it was the first time i had been in the air. It was like dreaming. In two hours we transformed the location and everything is new. So many things that we are demanding. The good thing is I like it here. Hopefully i can get a job soon. | | |
| 下了一场好大的雪,气温降得很低,刚从南方的家乡辗转回到学校,我不知道让我不适应的是骤然变冷的温度还是冷清的周遭.踩着化雪的地面,感觉像踩那种叫随变的雪糕.半年前的每一天我都要好几遍地走在这条路上,去自习室.不像现在不知道要去哪里,不知道哪里才有我想看到的熟悉. 过去了,一切都灰飞烟灭. 我在等待什么? 等着被告知所有的努力都没有结果? 还是让人欣喜若狂的消息? 我不知道. 我已经不去想了. 很久以来,我不再去想那个结果. 我很疲惫了. 不想让自己更累一点. 我突然好害怕那种空洞的气息. 没有人的存在, 没有声音的陪伴. 只有自己,无言. 可是有什么办法呢? 每个人都要长大,不管他多么用力地抗拒. 岁月是没有人可以拒绝的呵. 而我就那样被推出去了,从此一切顿改,不再有过去. 终于,还是要一个人走了. 背起简单的行囊,到一个陌生的地方,去找出自己想要的人生. 我怕吗?不怕吗? 我不知道. 但我不是第一次面对这样的惨白了. 而现在的我, 至少,不像曾经那样无助. 我应该高兴的,不是吗? 至少,现在的我已经长大了.我可以独自去面对很多事情. 而且,那些曾经行影相随的人,她们并没有走远.我还是可以看见,听见她们. 只要, 我愿意走近. | | |
| How does it feel like when you arrive at the airport just to find that the beloved one has just been gone into the air and to another country? I haven't been to the airport,fortunately. But i have experienced the same sadness. When i got an message from somebody about to fly in the air, and i cann't get through to him, it feels as though it's doom of the world. Yet now he is gone, out of my world , forever. It's sad, really. But it can't be helped. Bye, my lost dream. | | |
| I'm in Xiamen now. I m to Spend a few days with my friends. Most of the time I feel lonely. My friends have to work on weekdays. So here i'm by myself in the net cafe. I will go back to my little ever green endeared village. I'm excited to meet my little niece, my little some older nephew, my mon and dad, my brothers and sister-in-laws, and yeah, my grandma. I miss them. And it's great to see them soon. Only a little sad that I find xiamen doesn't quite meet my imagination. I think i will try to go to shanghai to see what I can do there. I mean, if i fail to go to xiamen university. I miss those friends who i met everyday and studied together for grad school for the past half a year. | | |
| Hey Jairy, Thanks. That night when I told you all about the sad experience at about midnight, I felt kept company. And actually, during the couple of days of exam time, you are the one that brings hope and warmth to me. Thanks. Now the big exam for grad school is finally over, and I don't know at all how well i have done with it. After that, i went to ktv with my best friend Renee and another friend. We just had no better entertainment. I have been kept being bored these days, even before the exam. I wasn't studying at all so that the first 3 hours of the exam made me uncomfortable. The thing concerning me now is whether i will find a seat on the train. If not, it means 40 hour's stance. That's horrible. The tough journey has always been a constant reason I wanna go back to my hometown. I'm here today to write my resume. I will be in Xiamen in a few days trying my luck for a good job. As for the result of the exam, it's ok. I will accept anyway. | | |
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